It's been a while since I blogged on here. I was waiting for some good news. You see, I get tired of writing the posts about being frustrated and the posts about being optimistic. I want to post about results. And I haven't been seeing any on the weight loss front. I have been going to the gym, running like a fiend, and logging my food. My trainer wants me to keep my calories between 1200 and 1600, my fat grams between 30 and 50 and my saturated fats negligible. Also I'm to limit my carbs later in the day. I've been following this 90% of the time. I have lost a pound in 4 weeks....and stayed the same in inches....I think I might have gained a few inches actually.
Frustrating doesn't begin to cover it.
I went to the doctor 3 weeks ago for my insurance physical and talked to her about my concerns. She checked my thyroid, my liver function, and vitamin levels. Everything came back normal except my vitamin d was a bit low. I started taking D supplements. Still no change.
After a particularly disappointing weigh in this morning, I was beside myself. I called the doctor again to talk to her about possibly a hormone imbalance. I do have terrible mood swings. I got an appointment and went on in. She treated me like I was crazy but ordered the labs anyway. She also tried to set me up with a dietician but when I called for an appointment, they only see people at 10:30 am and I can never come at 10:30. So I cancelled it.
I honestly wish I could be happy just being fat. This weight has really taken its toll on my mood, my stress level...basically everything is affected.
So, I'm not going to write on here. I'm not going to spread my negativity. If you're reading this, please say a little prayer for me. I will keep blogging and try to stay upbeat on my normal blog.
